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The year has just started and the month of January is slowly approaching an end. My birthday was also around the corner. 23. The new digits of my age make me feel like Michael Jordan in his prime.

You can call me Vino. The older the wine, the better it gets, as people like to say.


ON MY GRIND: MAKE THE YEAR GREAT AGAIN Pt. I | Jonathan Ngoy x theninetieskid

2017 was .. hm, how can I say. Different. Yeah, different is more likely the word I’m looking for.

I would like to review everything. But I would have to publish this post as a book.

So much has happened last year. The move to Vienna & the foundation of our upcoming community Bluprint-Productions is just two events of many that affected me personally.

Bad as well as good experiences were made. But every single experience was either a lesson or an adventure. New friendships were closed and some ended. That is part of life.

No matter what I’ve been through. No matter what I had in my mind on the daily routine. My main focus was to improve myself as a human being.

At the end of the year, you should be honest with yourself and ask yourself questions like:

„Am I proud of who I have become?“

„Did I actually achieve the goals I wanted?“

„How did I improve myself humanly?“

The way you speak and treat yourself matters the most. When people tell you, you’ve changed, it’s because you stopped acting the way they want you to act.


ON MY GRIND: MAKE THE YEAR GREAT AGAIN Pt. II | Jonathan Ngoy x theninetieskid

„One of the worst diseases of this world is called laziness.“ – That’s what my old coach used to tell me when I was too lazy to go for a run.

No fight is bigger and fiercer than the one with yourself. Every day you stand up and hope for change in life. But is it sufficient to follow the monotonous path of life? No, you have to get up and change something to see progress.

There are days when you want to do absolutely nothing. Every now and then you have that, it’s completely normal. In the long run, it eats you up slowly. I’ve been in this situation many times. Until I got tired and took in hand to work every single day on me.


ON MY GRIND: MAKE THE YEAR GREAT AGAIN Pt. III | Jonathan Ngoy x theninetieskid

Enough with lying around and hoping. I got sick of it. I wanted to change something.

Writing alone was not enough for me. I wanted more. The disease of more overwhelmed me, like a hamster wheel. I didn’t know where to start. 

The first thing that came up to my mind was music. But how could music make me a better person? I couldn’t rap neither could I sing. I visited a music school for two years, as a pianist back in the days. And yeah I tried to produce some beats too, but not every person with a laptop is a producer, right? So I also failed in this case. The idea of making music has been erased immediately.

„Music speaks when words can’t express your feelings.“

So I came up with the idea to create a playlist for my community and myself.

Music is the name of the game. Before going to bed. While sleeping, traveling, partying. The music adapts to every situation. I noticed early on, I couldn’t live without music.

With my music selection, I wanted to radiate one particular thing. Positive energy. No more bad mood. Music that makes you dance whether you’re in the mood or not. „Kill the negative vibe“, became not only the title of my playlist no but also a life attitude.

ON MY GRIND: MAKE THE YEAR GREAT AGAIN Pt. IV | Jonathan Ngoy x theninetieskid

No matter if in the morning or in the evening. Headphones in. Music on. Kill the negative Vibe in full blast.

BTW. The Playlist has been completely updated. CLICK HERE and listen to good music.

But the music alone didn’t make me the person I am today. I wanted to know more. Learn more. Gain more experience.

„You may see me struggle but you will never see me quit“

I found myself in Vienna quite quickly. My circle is filled with creative people. They always give you a feeling to do more in your life.

„Surround yourself with the dreamers and the doers, the believers and thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see the greatness within you, even when you don’t see it yourself.“ – Edmund Lee

My mindset changed rapidly. Things that I used to misinterpret, started to make sense in my mind now. I didn’t give an F about other people. Not in a bad way. I was way too focused on my way. My thoughts about other people in my surroundings changed immediately.

I don’t care where you come from. I don’t care what you do. I don’t care how you look or dress.

I either like you or not.

My mind felt freer. I didn’t worry about others I put myself as the priority. I was no longer distracted, so I was able to focus 100% on me.

ON MY GRIND: MAKE THE YEAR GREAT AGAIN Pt. V | Jonathan Ngoy x theninetieskid

There are many things that will help you in your life to change yourself.

Blogging was the „THING“ that made me change. I’m still that lil boy from 8605 but my mind is too outlandish.

Sure there is no guarantee. But I’m doing things I always wanted to do and that’s satisfying. It’s better to look back at life and say, „ I can’t believe I did that,“ than to look back and say „I wish I did that.“

I want to inspire people. I want someone to look at me and say, „Because of you I didn’t give up.“

I’m going to be more selfish this year. I always look out for others, but it’s time for me to put me first. I’m learning to say no without feeling guilty. I’m learning to say no without feeling like I have to explain. I hope I can gain more strength this year, I know it won’t be easy, but loving myself just a little bit more will improve my life a whole lot.

Note to myself




Pictures made by Domnic Duhs

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